At A Loss.......

I really don't know what I am doing Lord as a parent.  Why did you bless us with a headstrong little person to raise and take care of throughout life?  I love being a parent.  You know Lord I would never trade it for the world, but sometimes it is so hard.  Many years ago, I remember the times on my knees, asking you for a child to come into our life.  We prayed and prayed and waited and waited.  Your timing is perfect Lord.  She came at the right time in our life.

Our children were born with different problems and it took all we had to just get back on our knees and talk to you Lord.  Why?  Why are they so little?  Why are they not as healthy as other babies?  Didn't I do everything right?  I just know now, that you were listening and crying as well for us.  You knew they would make it.  You knew their little personalities.  You knew that our eldest when she was a baby knew what she wanted and when.  You knew when our youngest had a twinkle in his eyes, that our house would  be enlivened each day.  I love them so much Lord.  I thank you for them.

But I am at a loss.  Our children are turning into such fine little people Lord Jesus.  I have you to thank for that.  Our eldest is getting baptized in a month and I am so happy for the fact that she came to that realization by herself.  We haven't prodded her one way or the other.  But there are times when I think that this world, the evil in this world, is going to pull on her and make her act in ways that are not like you Jesus.  What can I do when she is throwing a fit for some reason or other?  I can only lean on you Lord.  I ask for your help.  I ask for your guidance.  No amount of books in the world will help us be the parents you want us to be.  We have to discipline in love but stand our ground.  It is so hard to be a parent.  I always thought it would be easy Lord.  I was sorely wrong.  As the days go by and she gets older, please lead us in the way you want us to go with her.  I want to be the best parent for her and raise her to be a loyal follower of you Lord Jesus but all I can do is give her a foundation as a parent.  She has to do the rest.  Let me lay her at your feet Lord.  Let me realize we can only do so much and then it is up to you.  You are the one that can move mountains.  I know you can help with this parenting adventure.  Like I said, most of the time I am at a loss.  I need to just give it to you and let you guide us and guide her.

Miss Ladybug, I love you little girl.  You are my love, my miracle, my daughter.  May your life be full of special blessings just as the Lord has blessed us many times over.  I just pray that you love the Lord with all your heart and seek Him in all your battles and trials in life.